My Journey

Watch this space,I intend to explain what brought me to this point, how I became a psychic and the trials and miracles I have experienced of which I am sure many will relate to...I believe in sharing experiences especially if it might help someone else on their unique journey. xx

Well have not done much with my site as Ive been away to Art College, best part of 3 years and I have loved every minute! Painting can be so healing and inspiring, it also opens up the imagination and defintely attunes the mind which helps with my Spiritual Connection.

I will put some of my pieces up for you too see soon, I intend doing alot more with my artistic flare. As well as Auragraphs, I want to design some Spiritual Art, greetings and Oracle cards, and take commision work.

Oh and I still intend to write about my life as soon as I get round to it, in the hope it will inspire others. ;)

Ok heres the first installment, I will continue it from time to time, you will see how my denial of myself is what sent me off track, and the reason I am where Im at now will become apparent and why I have a mission I guess you could call it, to share my story in a bid I can help others. I would not be in a position to do this if I had not experienced all that I have and this is what has brought me peace, my life was never a waste....

MY STORY

I would never have thought in a million years that I would be at a point in my life, that despite all the barricades and trials of ill health, that I would feel happier, more accomplished and content with just being me.

'JUST' is probably the biggest understatement, because "Being Me" has been the longest and hardest journey- I'm sure we all do it, we look outside of ourselves in a bid to find improvement, wether it be a partner, a job, money, things? Yes it all helps and can make you delieriously happy for a while, but I found I always had something underlying that just did not feel fullfilled. For alot of years I just kept going faster, looking harder to find that 'thing' I needed to feel better, improved.. I searched real hard with not much luck.. I got down, depressed, I beat myself up, pulled myself down, "It must be Me" !! I blamed ME, "What is wrong with ME"?
There were some dark days for a long while and Im embarrassed to say I over indulged and abused alcohol in a bid to escape an answer I could not find.
Yet I continued to hear a voice that seemed to come from "ME" and this was my constant battle of denial and argument with myself... I continued to ignore the voice, it told me I had all the answers, I replied "Shutup youre just going crazy, if I had all the answers I wouldnt feel so rubbish right now"(not quite the words I used!) "The answers are within" came the voice.... I just crawled into a bigger hole, could not sleep, was having really bad nightmares, I was working hard and playing hard. I could never relax, that would mean I was spending time with "ME" and I didnt think much of "ME" right at this time as I spent more time trying not to listen to the voices, I went into a spiral of self abuse, denial and blame, it was full scale WW3!! and I was at the epicentre. I remember the voice fading in and out of my mind telling me that this was going to make me ill........but my stubborn streak ignored the words much to my detriment as things continued heading in a downward spiral, the bombshell was about to drop...........

After months of repeated illness, such as tonsilitus, bronchitus, pleuracy and such pressure from my workplace(which was in the health industry!) I began to push my Doctors a little bit and argue in my weak and diminished capacity. Eventually a professional friend stepped in because every time I pleaded with Doctors, took them lists, got emotional...I wanted to know what was wrong with me..that my life had been so cruelly taken away, and I was operating at just 20% of my normal capacity, the power just seemed to have drained away from me- What did the Doctors conclude, 'DEPRESSION'!! well that was a text book 'cop out'!! I did become depressed, depressed at Doctors unwilling to see me as an individual and think outside the 'box'!